I'm still trying to come to terms with the death of my past classmate and close friend.It was just about 6 in the morning of May 1,2011,when I received a message from Tessa's sister,telling me that Tessa had passed away.For a moment I became numb as I struggle to find the words.All I could do was burst into uncontrolled tears. This has left me in a state of total silence and honestly I don't know what to do or even explain how I feel.
Tessa or Tess as I used to call her,was a remarkable person.She had such a beautiful soul and a down to earth kind of personality.I never saw Tess vex.She was a simple person who appreciated everyone and always encouraged you.The last time I saw Tess,I had just returned home from taking my treatment.We sat in her balcony and Tess and I shared our many struggles with illness.Tess,had such deep faith in God.She left me for a second and came back with a pile of papers,all scriptures and bible promises and we sat there and began to declare God's promises over our lives.We encouraged each other and as she showed me the scars,the tears ran down.After we part we kept in touch and each time we spoke or met we encouraged each other.Here was an instance of an amazing soul who was going through worse than me but instead of complaining she was encouraging me.We vouched that we were going to keep fighting and win this battle.
I don't know and I can't even find the words but only God and God only knows why she had to go.She taught me the meaning of endurance,resilence and being happy no matter what.Back then I used to fight to live but Tess looked at me one day and said,Forns,stop fighting and begin to live.From this moment on we promised to live.
I want you to know that Tess was a strong person and she lived until the Lord called her home.Her deep faith and belief in God was remarkable.At the time of her death,Tess went through the pain but when she died,she died peacefully.
I can still hear Tessa,calling my name as we laughed at the simple and crazy things in life.I can still remember her sitting next to me in class as we worked together or being on the school bus singing and giving nuff jokes.Tess never took anything for granted and that's why I say she was an amazing human being and I know many of you who crossed path with her will remember her as a caring,loving,beautiful individual who had the most beautiful soul.I'm happy to have known her cause she touched my life in a positive way.
What do I do now now that she is gone? The tears will come and we must grieve for a while but as we do let's remember the Tessa we all knew and loved.Let's cherished the memories,the laughter,the jokes and the fun times.If I know Tess well,she would tell us,to live,enjoy life,love God,forgive and live at peace with everyone.She would tell us to keep living,to enjoy the simple things and love and appreciate others.She would tell us that though she is gone,she didn't lose the battle,her time was up and she had to go home.She would tell us that she fought until the end and now she is home with God.Tess would tell us to give our lives to God,to love God and be at peace.To make things right.When I was growing up,I was taught that if you love someone,you would die for them but my experience with my best friend Tessa taught me that you don't die for someone but you live for them.She told me once,that yes Jesus had to go to the cross but the important lesson from Jesus' death was the fact he rose on the third day and still lives.
Tessa,would want us to live.She would want us to continue to share the love,to laugh often,to smile and most importantly to love God.
My fellow friends,I know her absence will live a void in our hearts and life but be encouraged that she is in a better place,she has gone to be with her maker,no more pain,no more worry,no more suffering.One day we will all meet again and sit by the ocean and relived the Happy Moments.
Gone but will always remain in my heart.Love you Tess.Rest in peace my friend.Every time I see a star,I'll smile and remember you.Till we meet again Tess.
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